Fighting Myself letra

Now, sometimes these thoughts in my head speak so loud
Every little thing that I think about just built on top of the pain and doubt
Even though I wanna just let it out, I
Try to act like I don't mind it, try to keep my mouth so quiet
But sittin' there in my silence, just seems to amplify it

When I thought that keepin' this inside would make it better
I never thought that I would end up ruining it forever
But everytime I think, I got everything put back together
I end up making more regrets, making more regrets

Falling from grace, I watch it all come apart
Knowing I could've changed it all from the start
Fighting myself, I always lose
Fighting myself, I always lose

I didn't want you to think I'm worn out so easily
I wish I'd held in, so you never knew what built up inside of me
Now, I don't know how it overflows, spill out unwillingly
But now, everything that I learned to hate came out for you to see

I don't want you to promise you can change everything and make it better
'Cause you can bet, I'm gonna end up ruining it forever
But everytime I think, I got everything put back together
I end up making more regrets, making more regrets

Falling from grace, I watch it all come apart
Knowing I could've changed it all from the start
Fighting myself, I always lose
Fighting myself, I always lose

Falling from grace, I watch it all come apart
Knowing I could've changed it all from the start
Fighting myself, I always lose
Fighting myself, I always lose

I can't run with this weight on my back
I can't see 'cause I'm focused on the past
I can't breathe, I need to break free
From the anger that is constantly inside of me

I can't run with this weight on my back
I can't see 'cause I'm focused on the past
I can't breathe, I need to break free
From the anger that is constantly inside of me

Falling from grace, I watch it all come apart
Knowing I could've changed it all from the start
I can't breathe, I need to break free
From the anger that is constantly inside of me

Falling from grace, I watch it all come apart
Knowing I could've changed it all from the start
I can't breathe, I need to break free
From the anger that is constantly inside of me